I've been SO BAD about updating this journal. Sorry.

Well, I've now lost 31.8 pounds. I'm now 3 pounds away from being under 200 pounds for the first time since I got married five years ago. I'd love to be there before the new year. I've set a new 10% goal at 189 pounds. I can actually wear my engagement ring again!!! Clothes are getting huge, but I'm not quite ready to buy new ones yet.

And on that note, I'm off to cook tons of Thanksgiving food *groans*

I MET MY 10% I MET MY 10%!!!!!!! WOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! I'm now down 23.8 pounds!!!! GO ME GO ME! I got my 10% key chain today, too! LOOK OUT SKINNY BITCHES HERE I COME!!!!

I lost 3.4 pounds this week for a total of 22!! WOO HOO! I'm so happy, especially after last week! I'm gonna have Jeff take some pictures later so I can compare and see if I notice any difference. People have told me they do, but I'd still like to see it for myself!

I was feeling really good today. I mean, I felt thinner. My clothes were fitting me so well!! And then I got weighed in. I GAINED .6!! Here's what pissed me off.

This morning I weighed myself and I was 208.5. Then I came home from work (after eating breakfast and lunch) and weighed 213. THEN I ate dinner because I was STARVING, and I ate it right before I left for my meeting. I weighed myself before I left. 214.5!!! WTF?

I can't wait until 7:30 on Tuesdays to eat dinner. I eat lunch at 12:30! I've tried eating a snack instead of dinner before my meetings, and it somehow makes me hungrier. GAH! I'm so close to my 10% I want to scream!! I'm even CLOSER to 20 pounds! *sigh*

I should have never eaten dinner so close to my meeting. Poo.

I lost 1.6 pounds tonight for a total of 19.2 pounds! I'm almost at my 10%! I have to say going in tonight, I really wasn't feeling very confident. I didn't think I had gained, but I wasn't expecting 1.6. I have PMS so bad I could have eaten non-stop today and not thought anything of it. But I didn't! GO ME!

My goal is to be below 200 pounds for New Years. I can totally do that!

So after last week's gain and the fried pickle disaster, I lost a pound this week for a total of 17.6. Not bad. Today I had to go to a conference, right? And they had box lunches. Which was bizarre as hell, but whatever. In my lunch was a ham sandwich (with cheese of course), Oriental mix (weird), a small cup of fruit, coleslaw that only had oil and vinegar on it (yuck) and Oreo cheesecake. I did NOT eat the cheesecake. But my lunch still ended up being 16 points. Oh, and all they had for breakfast was doughnuts. THAT'S IT. Only doughnuts.

All in all, by the time I came home I had 5 points left. I ate a Smart One plus some fruit. I had used about 7 of my flex points. Then Jeff came home. With Arby's. I ate a roast beef sandwich without checking the points.

It was 10 FREAKING POINTS. No cheese or anything, but still 10 FREAKING POINTS!!!

Which means I only have 16 flex points for the week (until next Tuesday), I'm getting my period so I'm STARVING constantly, Friday is my 5th anniversary and we're going out to dinner, and Saturday is my sister's birthday (again, dinner).

I'M SO STUPID! Why didn't I CHECK BEFORE I ATE THE DAMN THING.

Dammit.

*sigh*

There. I feel a little bit better now. Still nauseous at the thought of only 16 flex points left, but better.

I gained .4 this week. I'm totally cool with it. I've been craving salt like CRAZY this week (and I'm not even getting my period yet) and I probably didn't drink enough water to flush it all out. Yesterday was like a salt party.

What I'm NOT ok with is the fact that we went to Applebees for dinner. I ordered the Confetti Chicken (7 points, quite tasty). Jeff's parents ordered 3 different appetizers (nachos, boneless wings, and fried pickles). The lady put the fried pickles down RIGHT in front of me.

I love fried pickles.

As in, LOVE fried pickles.

I ate almost all of them.

So, not only did I blow the diet, I'm going to be extremely sick later.

I'm trying not to be too hard on myself. It's the first time I've blown it since I've been on it (June) so I'm really proud of that fact. Secondly, what I REALLY wanted was a hamburger and fries, which would have been WAY more points than I ended up eating anyhow. And third, I'm only human. I have a whole week to work it all off. Plus I didn't use ALL my flex points (thank goodness!)

I guess I need to start exercising again....Maya's gonna kick my boo-heinie...

I lost 3.6 pounds this week! I seriously nearly fell off the scale!! I felt like all I did was eat last week, and not all of it healthy either. I'm down a total of 17 pounds now, and people are FINALLY starting to notice.

Another 1.4 pounds gone! I'm up to a total of 13.4 now. Getting much closer to my 10% goal!

My mom is REALLY starting to drive me nuts at the meetings. See, when you go, every time you lose 5 pounds you get a 5 pound star sticker to put on this bookmark thingie. My mom can NOT understand it's only for when you lose 5 pounds. So this week we were doing celebrations (where people get their 5 pound rewards amongst other things) and my mom kept pointing to me and going "She lost this week!" I'm like "MOM! STOP it!"

MOM: But you lost weight!

ME: Yeah, but I didn't lose 5 pounds!

MOM: So, you still deserve a sticker!

ME: But I didn't lose 5 pounds!

MOM: But you still lost weight!

*headdesk*

Rather than have this same argument for the next 15 minutes, I told her she was embarrassing the hell out of me and she had to stop or I wouldn't sit with her anymore.

I must point out, we have this conversation EVERY WEEK.

Oy...

Haven't updated in a while! I've now officially lost 12 pounds! My clothes are getting looser. I can actually take a pair of jeans out of the dryer and put them on without laying down on the bed lol! I need to set a new mini-goal for me. My first one was to lose 10 pounds by the start of the school year, which I've already done. Not sure what I should do next. Suggestions?